Author: AnnaLarsson

What is your Ideal day?

Have you even thought about it? What is an ideal day anyway?

For me an ideal day is spent with my husband, daughter and her family. Seeing my grandson growing up and working my own hours when I want and not when someone else tells me to. It’s simple; I want to own my own time and my own work. Today I don’t have that but I have found a way to make it happened but it will take time and a lot of learning. It’s a new part of my life, I have done changes that have made my life better and I am learning and growing as a person.

A journey of 1000 miles starts with one step, one of my mentors said. To start a new journey you just have to take one step in the right direction and then one more. I know it’s hard to add new things into your life when your body is working against you and that is ok. When the time is right you will know it, just listen to what your body and mind is telling you. Remember it’s the small things you do every day that matters. Know that you have the most power in the present moment.

What in your life is helping you move forward?

I found that my pets helps me when I am sad and in pain. Today I have one dog and a cat but I am thinking of getting a snake sometime in the future. I have always been fascinated about snakes. For many years ago my daughter wanted a snake for about five minutes so we never bought one. Now she is all grownup with her own family and the thoughts about getting a snake has crawled back into my mind. I have heard that a Ball Python is a good choice for a first snake. Off course there is much to learn before I buy one but I think I need to start learning about them soon. Then I need to do something about the room I want to have as a snake-room.

What are you doing when Crohn’s Disease is taking over your body, how do you cope when your mind wants more than your body can give? When that is happening to me I often get a bit sad because it means that I haven’t been listening to the signals my body have sent, probably for a long time. Every time that happens I promise myself not to do that again and still I find myself in the same spot all over again.

What gives you hope for the future?

If you ask me I would say, knowing I can influence my life and I think learning new things will help med on my journey to fulfilment. What are you dreaming about and do you have a plan to reach them? I hope you have dreams for the future; they can brighten up your day.

I am trying to change my pattern in life so I can get healthier and be a part of family events more often. For me it’s about learning new things and growing as a person. I know that the situation I have today won’t work in the long run. I have to do something that allows me to own my time which means the time I work and who decides what I do at work. It will take some time before I get there but it’s a journey I have to take. I have to say though, I really like it to.  

One of my mentors said if you fill your ideal day every day you will have your ideal life. I think it’s important to love your life and what it can teach you on the way. Please take the steps you need to find your smile, you are worth it, remember that.

See yaaa next time!

What are you afraid of?

Being afraid of spiders or snakes is a common fear and that is a fear you can admit to have, no questions asked. It’s harder to admit a more personal fear, especially for yourself. It’s hard to admit having fears that affect one’s life and health. It’s easier to just hide the fear and avoid facing it.

Are you living a fearless life?
I’m not. I have many fears and some of them are holding me back and others I try to forget for the moment. I have thought about it and I am afraid of not being loyal to things and people I have made a commitment to. It may not seem this fear is something to worry about but still I do. I always want the commitment and work I do to be the best that I can give. It’s probably because I am dependent of people’s appreciation even if my health suffers from it.

I am also afraid of getting stuck in a work that keeps stressing me out and getting me sick even if I love what I do. If I am getting sick I will miss some valuable happenings with my family and friends. It’s really not worth it if you think about it. I know it’s about prioritizing what is the best for me but it’s hard to say no to things I love to do. I’m sure you know what I’m talking about; you have probably done the same choices now and then.

Being afraid of losing something you love even if it hurts you in the long run can be scary. You know what you have but not what you can get if you try something else. There are no guarantees in life.

Acceptance

So what to do about the scares you hide away. You will need some courage to accept things you are afraid of. To work on your fears you need to accept them and bring them to the light. What is the worst that can happen, right? So, I will take the first step to accept two fears I have and that are telling you about it. I believe the scares get smaller if you accept them and work with them. You have to face your fears to move on and gain a better life even if it is hard to make that choice. You have the power to change your life; don’t let the disease put you down. Face your fear and make a stand to live the best life you possibly can live. Crohn’s Disease dosen’t have to be the end of your life but it can be the beginning of a wonderful journey where you dare to face your fears and find new wonderful things along the way.

Something to think about- Are you feeding your faith or your fear? One of my mentors called JJ said “Feed your fear and the faith will starve.”  So, please! Don’t feed your fear anymore. When feeding your faith instead you will find your smile on your journey forward to the life that you deserve.

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